Back-tracking

Rush forward, 

Only to slide further back;

Take a short-cut, 

Only to get hopelessly lost.

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I make a plan, it leads me back to myself, 

I let the plan find me, I am led beyond myself;

I chart a course, it leads me in circles, 

I go off course, I finally sail the deep sea.

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The harder I look, the less I see, 

A small point, ever-narrowing. 

The harder I scheme, the less I control, 

Trapped in suffocating structures. 

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I know what I know, 

And what I know, 

Cannot teach me anything unknown, ‘

I see what I see, 

And what I see, 

Cannot show me anything unseen. 

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To grow, 

Means not planning but adjusting.

To know, 

Means not grasping, but releasing.

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14th April, 2024